Ominous rain clouds filled the skies on a cold day in October. The
hovering fog was so dense, not one of us could see the mountainous
landscapes surrounding this foreign place which, in my naive teenage
mind, was the equivalent to a modern day Alcatraz. Looking up the
stairs leading to the entrance, with enough luggage at hand to get by
for quite a bit of time, I continued bargaining with my nervous,
uncertain parents. I was welcomed with open arms in the most joyful and
embracing way by strangers whom my family seemed to recognize. Within
minutes the door was closed leaving my family in the dark, ignorant to
the real policies and procedures.
Throughout my bid at this
pretentious "life saving establishment", I was thoroughly introduced to
the FFS's version of Alcoholics Anonymous. Which would have been a
fantastic thing if only it had been genuine A.A, instead of mostly
bullshit. The Family Foundation School, in my opinion, has no right
collecting thousands, most likely millions of dollars by simply
piggybacking A.A.'s ideals but,in their own revised - non A.A.
principles and traditions. I now look back and wonder if these people
truthfully ever read the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. They
manipulated the principles and suggestions of the book in order to suit
their own personal program. I understand now that the Family School is
not A.A. but, I fear that they may permanently ruin the viewpoint of
A.A. for a young adolescent attending their business facility when the
kid might really need the program in the future.
I spent 9 out of 12 months in the "corner" and on many sanctions
throughout my stay. Many of these sanctions and/or punishments I earned
due to defiance, insubordination, and reluctance to conform. However, a
lot of times I just could not change my moral beliefs in order to fit
their criteria of a good person.
This school did teach me lessons on acceptance and powerlessness I must
admit; however, they were not in the least bit tactful or understanding
in their methods. It truly is being advertised in a misleading way and
if things don't change, the future of FFS looks, to me, very insecure.
The day I left I chose to get high. I continued to do so as my disease
of addiction progressed into much harder drugs than my usual marijuana
use. Several crimes, jail bids, overdoses, car accidents, halfway
houses, homeless shelter and rehab stints later I finally found a true
higher power and support group to help me kick my aggressive Heroin
addiction. As long as I implement A.A. beliefs and suggestions into
action in my life today; with the help of God, I can finally be the man
that my Higher Power spared me to be.
Sincerely,
Ryan Meraglio